Livin' and Playin'

Has anyone else wanted to kill themselves really badly but cannot because they have family that would fall apart if they did? As much as my little brither and sister say they dont like me without me protecting them from behind the scenes and doing what I can to make sure they dont fuck up their futures more than they have already, they eould have dropped out of high school already. I swear its almost not worth it

mad-man-with-a-scarf:

That awkward moment when you get shot by your wife

In front of your wife

Who then proceeds to try… and kill… your wife?

I am an asshole when i am trying to do shit IN MY OWN ROOM and you are trying to sleep. So I take my laptop out in the livingroom to be considerate. You want to do shit in MY FUCKING ROOM while i am trying to sleep, and all I ask is that you keep the light off. You can open the window for light or go in another room but I am still the asshole. All you wanted to do was put on your makeup but you couldnt do that in another room or the bathroom. No. You had to do it in my room with the light on. Bitch you are about two seconds away from something. I actually have no clue what that thing is but it wont be pleasant I can promise you that. You are nothing more than a self centered child that never left the mineminemine phase. It is all about you. I am one shitstorm away from blowing my brains out and you are more concerned about your goddamned makeup. Fuck you and your makeup. I finally get to pass out after three days of no sleep while going to work, THEN working out to make myself desirable for you (because we all know you couldnt stand me if I was out of shape), THEN dealing with my law breaking soon to be daddy younger brother, THEN dealing with my father hating wants to kill herself little sister to give my mother a break from the hell she lives every day, THEN helping my grandparents who hate me because its the right thing to do even though whenever I go over there I have to hear what a failure I am and how I wont amount to shit, I FINALLY GET TO SLEEP AND YOUR FUCKING MAKEUP IS MORE IMPORTANT! I AM TRULY WISHING MY CAR FUCKING BLOWS UP WHILE I AM INSIDEBECAUSE I AM DONE WITH ALL OF THIS

I mean seriously i cant fucking browse the web in my own room. Nope. Never what Josh wants. Its always other people that decide what happens. Fuck you. Fuck your shit. Fuck your stupid bullshit. Fuck all the shit that you pull that makes me wanna fucking paint my ceiling with my brains. I absolutely fucking LOVE being #2 to EVERYTHING else in EVERYONES life. Fuck everybody i dont give a flying fuck i hope I die in a car crash so this bullshit will go the fuck away. I cant sleep anymore, frustrated as hell, get sexually teased and lead on then left to fucking dry. I WANT TO KILL SOMETHING WITH MY BARE HANDS!!!!! i AM GOING TO CHEMICALLY CASTRATE MYSELF AND BE DONE WITH ALL OF THIS SECOND RATE, JOSH COMES SECOND, HOPE YOU CAN FINISH YOURSELF BULLSHIT.